Before The Tears Break

 

 
I try to speak when it matters most
But silence is my retreat
Asking God for the words
To hone the faith for healing
In the face of it all

When reality feels like a nightmare
And what if's speak
As fear seeks to intimidate me
Interrogation of a guilty conscience
When the sickness is not my fault
Yet no less I feel as if I've put you through

You're the strongest of us
With trust unwavering in your display
Leading by example to guide us to the way
Righteous indignation wells in me
Powerless I feel but to watch it all unfold
Seeking hope in the face of darkness
Un-comprising in your unbroken soul

I'll stand with you
We're in this together and fighting
Contending in the trial
Heart attack temptations of the fragile
Frail flesh consults sight when emotions get the best of me
Doubt is an empty threat

Firing blanks in empty shells
True faith never disappoints
Heaven is our inheritance despite our present hells
Reflecting as cracks form in my eyes
Belief wages against what is seen
When the facts are made of lies

Letting go
Caught between honesty and truth
Contending in the shadows
Just one word to bank my heart upon
Questions in my mind
Come up against answers rehearsed
Learning to believe when I am tested
More than just well versed

Life on trial, moment to moment
Redefine reality when it hurts
Light afflictions, callous to this world
The Word is true in the face of the worst

Who am I behind closed doors
As I pause and think of you
Speaking faith in the face
Of my broken point of view

Prayers like messages in a bottle heart
I cast across a sea of stars to grace
More than just wishful thinking, trust instilled in me
From my mother's heart to see the Father's face

Last laugh first, before the tears break
Providence is foresight and a battle won
Healing is the children's bread, we partake
We feast upon from the back of the Father's Son

Scarce miracles
The unclaimed inheritance
Blood bought
Perceiving light like a thread
Knit to hope
The world is an illusion
And death is dead...