When Hope Feels Like Deception

 

I'm at a loss for words and you
When all I could say isn't enough
To express my heart
And match the legacy of your love

A touch unparalleled
And all the things I've put you through
You never deserved the sorrow
For all the years gone
I can’t help but dream of you

Waiting for tomorrow
Praying for the strength to carry on
Grid locked for circumstances
Concern speaks for scenario drills

Depression like lethal romances
Not knowing is half the battle when anticipation kills

Perceptions of selfishness
Caught up in the demands of life
Trying to determine how to proceed
Where do we go from here?
Torn between what is want and what is need?

Vain is the pride of our achievements
Accomplishment depreciates the value of our self-worth
Establishing a temporal kingdom
What's it all for when all things fade on this dying earth?

Short sights of relative views
Lifetime endeavors versus the purpose of eternal ends
Horror stories to merchandise the news
Material havens are worthless without family and friends

Pivotal seconds against a loaded gun
Held hostage by detrimental days
Without love there is no light in the sun
Lost in a realm where everything decays

Short notice urgency and tough calls
Dial tone confessions and white walls
Absent bedsides and longing for home
I'll see you a thousand times to tell you
You are not in this thing alone

For all the company in the world
It's the one face you miss that just as soon makes it feel dead
I don't want to regret missing out on one more moment
Or leave any sentiments of love left unsaid

Statements made of what we do
Silent withdrawals and missing you
Heartache contrived of uncertain times
No schedule for the unexpected
No comfort in these vacant lines

Contending to believe despite what it is I'm feeling
Tell me how to pray to manifest healing
When faith strives to breathe against grim realities and sight is blind perception
What is the truth and what is the lie, when hope feels like deception

Wishful thinking professions speak the risk of taking Love at His word
Focusing on the providence of salvation deriving confidence from everything that I've heard
Emotional process, the handicap of our tears
Dismiss the doubt, we've still yet to live our best years

Contending, somewhere between honesty and faith till hope tells true
Placing my trust in the unseen You
Tell me that there's better days ahead
Despite the lie of what the circumstance said

When things are going well yet fear is an underlying voice
I still believe despite what I cannot control
It is my choice

Eyes set on the summit from the valley of death
What glory in the shadow when even the last is but the first breath?
The reflection we see is but the sight of a broken mirror
Faith comes by hearing but I am a broken hearer

Mend the filter through which we perceive all we think we can see
As to look at the world through the reality of you or the limits of me?
After we've reached the end of all we can do
It's all I can do to let go and believe in You...