You Are A Song That Never Ends

Caught up in these feelings that I can't shake
Just when I think I've adjusted
I'm still lost in the feelings of residual heartbreak

For all that I know and the by the book answers
I contend to bask in a meditation of joy
Yet I find myself defaulted to involuntary wallow
When reality is too tough to chew, I choke as I swallow

Good and bad days
Caught between movement and standing still
It still feels like I could call you just as easily
And you'd answer all the same

Yet knowing what you'd say is a poor substitute for conversation
Looking back over social media reminders
Your words and messages like fingerprints on photographs
The dried residue of the oils of your skin
All the evidence of touch without a hand to hold

What is our legacy but every impression we leave
And every word ever written
Like a fossil taken from the structure of our former thoughts

I listen to your silent words
Reading them back to myself
Dancing with every memory of you to the tune of a broken record
Sung like our favorite songs overplayed
And yet you are a song I cannot hear enough...